This is what's been going on ..
Homelessness
Anger
Hurt
Worry
Sick to my stomach
Random bouts of crying
Is she alive or dead?
Disappointment
Prostitutes
Train tracks
Predators
Discouraged
Hopeless
Seconds where I'll forget and laugh
Friendship
Love
Help
Hospital visits
Seconds where I pray and no one listens
Mt. Tom
Making Alyssa laugh
Acceptance
Midnight drives to detox
Lies
Heartache
Worry
Fear
Headaches
Sleepless nights
Alone
Detachment
Struggle
This is my relationship with my daughter. In the midst of all that's happened over these past few days, I hold on very tight to the laughter and smiles. I may never get to see them again. They may be our last ones together. I cherish them with my heart. I see their beauty amongst all of the barriers of pain. I still see the little bit of glimmer. I'm afraid that it's going to go out like a flame on a candle. And all I will be left with are the puddles of wax.
I feel for you, I really do! It's sad that you as a parent have to suffer through this. All you can do is be strong for you, for her and for the rest of your family and hope and pray she finds her way back to you.
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